Weeks 9–10

I AM SORRY I keep skipping weeks I was just feeling like absolute trash.

• I’ve been working on my design portfolio. The more portfolios I look at, the more confused I get about what a good portfolio is. All of them have started looking the same so now I don’t know how recruiters do it.
• I’ve been thinking about whether I’m able to achieve what I had in mind with these weeknotes. I wanted to write more to get better at it. But I’ve ended up writing most of the entries in 20 minutes just to get them over with. I don’t think the quality of my writing has improved at all. It’s just turned into a brain dump, which is completely okay but it’s just not what I wanted to get out of this exercise.
• It seems like the pandemic has made me even worse at time management. I have no idea how I used to manage to wake up, get a workout in, cycle to work, spend ~9 hours there, cycle back home, have dinner, and have enough time and energy to complete one drawing each day (I was pretty consistent too, let me plug my Instagram herehttps://www.instagram.com/thetadraws/). All I ever do now is sleep, eat, stare at the laptop, and stress about how 24 hours are simply not enough. Parkinson’s Law really managed to manifest hard in my life.
• I finished reading Creativity Inc. It was very nice. It had got a little slow halfway through it picked up pace once they started talking about the Disney-Pixar merger so I was able to complete it.
• I’m heartbroken that the McDonalds BTS meal doesn't have a vegetarian version.
• I finally worked out on Friday after about 3 weeks I think. I did this short Taylor Swift workout by my bestie Rachel to ease myself back into it. It was hardly 10 minutes, and not intense, but I wanted to throw up after it. Still, I feel a little accomplished and that feels good.
• Getting myself to sleep has become a task again. Podcasts just don’t cut it anymore. I think my sensory overload is peaking. I end up having to stay up till 3am to drain myself and only then can I sleep. But I intend to fix it today (Friday). I’m going to sleep at 10.
• I watched Bo Burnam’s Inside and it was highly entertaining. The internet bit was my favourite.
• I had a long chat with Anshuman about the designer life. It was nice to talk to someone new. I think the only way I can make friends on the internet is by getting them on video calls with me. I really need those visual and behavioral cues to get a read on them.

This has been sitting in my drafts for too long. I’m hitting Publish.